Friday, May 11, 2007

whirlwind

hawaii. i was there. it hardly seems possible that i could have just spent over a week there. the last few weeks have felt like a whirlwind, with hardly any time to process the many emotions that have been filling my heart.

a busy last week of classes full of tests, assignments and preparing for the end.

finals week. trying to study and spend time with my dear friends.

check-out. cleaning, late nights, saying good-bye, packing up and trying not to cry.

flying out to hawaii after barely being home.

spending a packed week of playing tourist with my room-mates. being happy, frustrated, tired and blessed.

coming home and getting interviewed for a job. the job that i really wanted, but now that i have it, i feel jittery and nervous.

the past few weeks i haven't even had the time to type out a few sentences and now that i am here, sitting in front of the computer, and all my thoughts, everything i so wanted to get out seems to have disappeared. is it possible to feel so much yet have nothing to say? tonight, that is all i have. tomorrow, perhaps i can be more profound. maybe i'll be able to write about the sadness that fills my heart when i think of those i've said good-bye to. maybe i'll be able to express the some of the conflict in my heart that i discovered in hawaii. maybe i'll be able to...tomorrow.

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