Thursday, April 12, 2007

just a few ponderings

patho test tomorrow, but i feel like i need to get a few random ponderings out first...

i met with mw for our one-on-one today which felt so right. somehow she just adds a bit of stability and reason to my life. not that i'm completely out of whack without her, but the world just seems a little better after being with her. (i hope people can say that about me, after spending time around me!) we re-established that romantic love is not the only kind of relationship that is possible with a male friend. praise the lord! =) we talked about "the man from snowy river." we talked about our team and next year's team. we talked about the soon-approaching end. we talked about lack of motivation. we talked about boys. we talked about easter and spring break. i think i have a friendship crush on mw. after i'm with her, i just am ready for some more! =)

on my way to see taylor today, i was feeling overwhelmed. i had made up my mind that this would be the last year. then i saw her face. when she lit up when i entered the room, i felt a twinge. but then her down-cast face when i told her that next week is our last week really did me in. what am i supposed to do? when i talked to aubrey about this a couple of weeks ago, she suggested not doing little bruins, but still visiting her. maybe every other week or once a month. ummms...

seeing friends today blessed my heart. how was your test? how is your life? truly caring about me. hugging me. thanks, jesus. i need them. i can see your love for me through them.

the end is coming soon. check-out is coming up. spring formal is next next sunday. our last staff meeting is next wednesday. one more walkabout dinner. tests. tests. tests. exams. exams. exams. (which sounds scarier?)

my favorite song of the day is "you are beautiful" which i am listening to it right now. i think i've listened to it about 10 times, without exaggeration. strong work, bryan and scott. i must say that my favorite was the live versions on our retreats. i wish there was a way to paste a little of the happiness i get when i listen to it on this page...

i don't what you've been through/but i see that you're scared/from the pain that you've felt/and if love's even there/your past is all cloudy/reminders of hurt/and so you don't understand/just how much you are worth

you are beautiful/you are beautiful/no matter what they say/no matter what kind of day/you are beautiful

you are worth more than silver/you are worth more than gold/and your smile's a dream/that has never been told/you don't have to be perfect/we all have our flaws/just know that you're made/in the image of God

you are beautiful/you are beautiful/no matter what they say/no matter what kind of day/you are beautiful

with the weight of the world/tryin' to bring you down/and the pressures and the struggles/are all around/there's someone who'll love you/more than you'll know/and he's whisperin' in your ear/that you're beautiful

your life's a work in progress/it's only begun/you have so much to offer/don't be scared to move on/the future is here/it's a brand new day/put a smile on your face/as you hear him say...

you are beautiful/you are beautiful/no matter what they say/no matter what kind of day/you are beautiful

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