warm and fuzzies

i am sitting here, waiting for my next check-out time, since i got done early with the last ones. i'm listening to brooke fraser and feeling too tired and drained even to cry.

last night was a different story though. after check-outs and dinner with jenny, i made popcorn bars and went to bed...for an hour before it was time for our lastest staff meeting. i drove over with amanda, with her computer (complete with staff video!) and the popcorn bars on my lap. we wrote "warm and fuzzies" (according to benson, who apparently loves "warm and fuzzies") to each other on paper supplied by martha. we watched the video amanda made of our staff this year, which made me laugh more than anything else, complete with so many wonderful memories. we also presented martha with the picture frame with all of our "senior" pictures surrounding our group picture. she loved it. she wrote us all special notes on paper hearts that matched our bibles, saying "love beyond words." amanda gave the boys pillowcases, specific to each of them. bryan got a musical notes case and john "you awkward awkward man you..." got his covered with computer keys. benson of course had his favorite team, arizona. scotty got black kitty jokes. tj and kevin both got food related pillowcases-fast food for tj and tea for kevin. then the girls were given reversible aprons, made by amanda also. mine is covered with nurses, and is completely adorable, with pockets even! by then, it felt like time for bed, so some hugs and few good-byes later, bryan, kevin, john and i squished into the back of amanda's car, with stacey in the front with amanda, laughing together as we went over the speed bump. as i walked up the stairs to apt. #9 and sat on the couch, reading all my "warm and fuzzies" i couldn't help but cry a little. i am so blessed to know these people.

to wake up this morning and not be alone in the apartment was just what i needed. having jenny still here has been an extra blessing. last night after dinner she looked at staff pictures with me, and it felt happy to have her share a little part of what has been such a huge aspect of this year for me. i am glad she's here for a few more hours.

my friends are getting ready to graduate right now. there is no more wondering if this is the end. it is really feeling like it, and i'm not liking it too much. how i am going to miss them...