to trust you

it was really hard to say good-bye to my family today.
even harder than usual.
but that could be because i know that this is my senior year.
or maybe because this is the first time i went by myself (since i have jordan now)
or maybe its just because its been a while and its really always this hard.

as i made the drive a song came up by ginny owens. i actually skipped it and was prepared to listen to the next song on my ipod, when i felt like i should go back and listen to it. and boy, am i glad i did. it was exactly what i needed. not only for today, but for the year ahead of me.

I'm knocking on Your door,

Won't you answer?

I'm waiting for a word,

Or just a whisper;

But if You can't answer me this time,

I can handle everthing just fine

'Cause somehow I seem to think I have power,

And I know best how to make things better,

I try to carry everything alone,

But now the time has come to let go

To trust You with my life,

To believe You all the time,

And to leave my doubt behind,

Oh to trust You with my life.

Will I ever learn to stop and listen,

To keep knocking on Your door until it opens,

Teach me what it means to believe,

That You are strong enough to carry me

Oh, to trust You with my life,

To believe You all the time,

And to leave my doubt behind,

Oh, to trust You with my life.

And to give You everything,

All the deepest parts of me,

And to know You're always right,

To trust You with my life.

Broken here before You on my knees,

Is my only hope of finding peace