a jar of clay

sometimes i feel almost guilty for having doubts, for feeling overwhelmed, for wondering...

yet, according to paul, as a jar of clay these things help to describe me during this fragile stage on my journey:
"...but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure." 2 cor. 4:7

as a jar of clay, i am
pressed
perplexed
hunted down
knocked down

but i'm not
crushed
driven to despair
abondoned by God
destroyed

"for our present troubles are small and won't last very long. yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! so we don't look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. for the things that we seen now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever." -2 corinthians 4: 17-18