jonah

this weekend, scott talked about jonah and how each of have our own "ninevahs": people that rub us the wrong way, we don't connect with, etc. as r.a.s we have the unique opportunity to minister to our residents. the temptation to wait until it is a little more convenient or after the homework is done before ministering is ever present. we hold the precious gift of God's grace. will we choose to share it? will we hold it to ourselves and even be angry when God shares it to our "ninevahs"?

this morning as i read my bible, i read psalm 27 where david asks God to show up and meet with him. he asks God to give him an answer. i know that i often ask that of God...but how often do i, like jonah, already anticipate the answer i want God to give me? am i prepared for the possibility that God might have something completely different in mind for me? something i may not be comfortable doing? something i may outright hate? something i would be scared to do?

one other thing i thought of...what if, sometimes we aren't like jonah? what if sometimes, we are like the whale? God asks us to swallow something and even get rid of it only a short time later, at great discomfort to ourselves. we may not see the results or even understand. in fact, we may just be playing a part in someone else's story.

do i trust God?

am i content to let him bring "ninevahs" into my life? am i content to let him have the control? am i content to not understand what is going on? am i content to feel inadequate if it means that God is able to work through me? am i willing to let him use my insecurities and fears for good?

lord, help my unbelief. help me to trust you.